12.01.2009

And Then December Snuck Up On Me

It's December. How did we get here? December scares me. For me, it starts off with the busiest two weeks of my life. The major event that I work on falls on the second Saturday of December every year. So at this point I work constantly. It's always been this way, but now it's taking a toll on life since I could easily go two weeks without seeing William.

Tonight I forced myself to leave the office at 6:00, so I could put William down. It was the best 20 minutes I had today. Although going home early will cost me tomorrow night and through the rest of the week, it makes me feel better right now. (So would a chocolate chip cookie... But I digress.)

I also realized that with all this focus on work I forgot to do something for William: I never made his 15 month appointment with the pediatrician. I know, I know. Go ahead, judge me. I'm probably going to Mommy Jail, anyway.

I'm just frustrated that I let myself and William down. If it were something at work I'd be frustrated that I let myself and my co-workers down. I guess something was bound to give. I just wish it was neither and I could be on top of everything, like the perfect working mom should be in my head.

Ugh. So, yeah, the little guy will be closer to 16 months than 15 months for his 15 Month Appointment. Not a big deal in the long run, but I hate to have that crack in the facade that I've got it all covered. Thankfully Matt is all over being #1 Dad and my mom is pitching in with laundry and making sure we always have milk for the little guy. What would I do without them?

2 comments:

Cindy Fey said...

Are you too busy to watch SYTYCD? I'd love to hear what you're thinking about this season. I love Ellenor! But I think she's too odd to win.

Lady Hannemaniac said...

I'm catching up on SYTYCD as we speak... LOVE Ellenor and Rusell!